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Just me.  Other days, I am.
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Saturday, December 30, 2006 @ 10:37 AM
Living in a world of lies... When I woke up this morning, the sun was brightly shinning and now it still is. Oh.how i miss this kind of weather. Lately, it had been just raining continuously where there were frequent downpours throughout the country. Sometimes, it just dampens my spirit and i just sit around, refusing to do anything. Well, im feeling ALOT right now. happy and sad at the same time. There's always one point of time where i think a lot, about what's going on in my life and those around me. It's weird how everyone feels differently, or some so indifferent, about the things revolving around and how it affects them. I often thought that since life is short, why not just smile everyday and live on happily. But sometimes, it is tiring to plaster the smile on our faces and deceive ourselves. I've been lying to myself all these while. I dont preach what i say and I go on like that everyday. It's like I ponder hard on the stuff that i havent done, but still I dont get about doing it. Really hate myself alot for this point. Everything's so deceitful and fake. Actually, Im doubting everything that's in my life but im so ever glad that there's my sister and family though Im pretty sure that they(mum,dad) dont really know what's really going on in my life. While the rest around me, I dont know what they think about me or if they even bothers. Sadly, I dont really care too for I only exist in my own little world. I dont even know what's my purpose of life... On a lighter note, the new year is arriving and let's welcome it graciously.(or, is everyone just pretending?) Tomorrow, I will be going to downtowneast for the countdown party. Hopefully, my spirits will lighten up, with the help of those around me and myself. Seriously, I really hate posts like this, where the tension is hanging like thick clouds in the dark sky..and this is actually one of the stuff i rarely post about but i am really glad to have done it. Not that it is strongly encouraged though. Hopefully, I won't have such posts again and cut me some slack if i do. Maybe someday I will actually have a goal in life... Yes, I am sure that tomorrow will be a better, better day! (I can picture the sun shinning again, everyone smilling blissfully, watching the most fabulous performances, while the year closes into a perfect ending) =D So, Take care, y'all! and thanks for those who actually cared for me! |