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Just me.  Other days, I am.
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Tuesday, January 30, 2007 @ 6:44 PM
I wish I could figure how it works... She thought about it. thought hard on the decision she had to make. one that could make a total difference in her life or one that wouldnt change anything and everything would remain the same. She learnt something about human beings: they preferred things the way they were. Did not like change.Would do a lot to make sure stuff remained the same. It was, she thought, a kind of safety catch - keep it firmly locked on and nothing would happen. No loud bangs. The status quo would remain the same. Giving up helped stop the thinking, helped stun the brain into submission and halt the flow of unwanted conclusions. Saved those precious little moments of life too. No point clinging on anyway. Time to let go. .Shit.Who could help her make a decision? She knew that only she could decide for herself and that the answer lay in her. But what exactly was the answer? She didnt know. But figured she had to decide soon. Whatever it was, she hoped that her gut feeling was right... hard to like. hard to love, to be more accurate. And easier to dump. Saturday, January 27, 2007 @ 11:28 AM
Wallowing In Wondrousness Mood: half awake Yes, it's the 27th already. 6 days after the 21st. Currently, im struggling to stay afloat, juggling with school work and the shortage amount of time I have in my hand. Time is really running out. Not mentioning, keeping myself awake throughout the week. Yesterday was a rather uneventful Friday in school for me. (All thanks to that bio related person). Anyway, let’s brush off all these unhappiness aside first. Yes, I am going to blog about that fun-filled day… *smiles blissfully to self* Dropping off at downtown east, we trundle off to Aloha Loyang under the blistering heat. Little did we know that it was a rather long walk to the designated place and by the time we'd actually found the place, sweat was dripping on our faces and backs. (ewwww for that, but anyway let’s get back to the point). Luckily, we had our friendly tissue papers with us, so it kinda saved the day. And yes, we were elated to see the guys there already, busy in the kitchen. I spent the rest of the afternoon cooling down and just enjoying the presence of the guys and my friends. And, basically, we were just cam-whoring to entertain ourselves. Was really enjoying myself being silly and just standing around together, forming right angles or whatsoever, and just looking at what others were doing. We were constantly bursting out in a heap of gasping giggles watching the vcd that contained the guys' previous rehearsals. So many fond memories were flooding my mind then. However, my knees were aching from all the squatting down though. And, after that we decided to take a little breather out of the house, taking more candid shots. Ps. with the car too. d= Dinner was warm and yumptious. Tried the curry that was prepared by Andy’s mum and which he said he helped in he stirring, not bad actually. Popped in a few chocolates too. Yes, that was the nice dinner I was burbling about. After which we had some heart to heart group talk, which also had a sprinkling of giggles shooting out from every corner of the room now and then. My initial worry of not being able to stay on longer was soon replaced by hearty laughters. By ten, my energy was level was fast running low but I tried maintaining the yes-im-still-hyped-up look, which under the circumstances took a huge amount of effort. Anyway, it was just sheer tiredness on my part so I remained silent. But still I was contented at that point of time. And Andy was nice enough to walk us out to the main road. Soon enough, with the help of the cabby driver, I got home safely and immediately plunged into bed. (ok, not immediately, but after I washed up and stuff) This is getting real dry so here are some pictures to spice up this post. PHOTO GALORES BEGINS HERE!                      ^i was already so tired then, so no image lar. Thursday, January 11, 2007 @ 5:59 PM
Stupid Incident mood: peeved Well, Im feeling pretty rotten at the moment. I hate everything involving school. screeew everything. Sometimes I dont get myself either. Okay.at least yesterday wasn't that bad as today. Something crappy happened. Well,my LOVE for eating led to this..... *recounts whole incident* 9.55pm. English lesson. Some one in the class was talking about food. "Aye, today's wednesday, got wanton mee!" And she got all hyped up and the teacher was like "no work done no wanton mee". we were rushing to finish summary then. Hearing all this talk about food, I got all excited too and were planning amongst ourselves to chiong to the canteen when the next bell rang. Hmmm.nothing wrong yet, right? well, here goes. 10.20am Wooo~ Time to eat. right? I began pacing my steps and then i even asked yl to pack up quickly(if not, there will be no place for us to eat. Strangely, she took her own sweet time and looked baffled at my request. Then, I saw students from other class queing outside the class holding geog tbs. Amd then yl came out and asked. "Where y'all going?'' "Canteen" came the overly enthu reply by moii. "Eh,miss.. now it's history/geog elective lessons" "NOT RECESS?!?!" Upon full realization, we dashed up back to the classroom in full blast.. Luckily, Mrs H was in one of her bestest mood that time, so I escaped back to class unscathed... Dangz! Im really the blurest person left on earth i guess. I must have been the most idiotic girl in school.So totally dumb, can? Wait, sl and syl also thought it was makan time. At least i had a good laugh at myself too. So whatever. Ok. Laugh. Saturday, January 06, 2007 @ 4:43 PM
rantings~ Well, so much for starting the day right. But,hey, I did some history hw before 10am. *glees to self* You know smthg, yesterday's going out proved to be a waste of time, couldnt get what I want, and only to feel uncomfortable throughout. Yes, Im weird. I hate and like going out. So after atempting some history questions earlier on, my true self got the better of me(which is the slacking side) and I did some photoshopping stuff. It has been ages since I played with photoshop so the skills gets kinda rusty you know, the end result is somewhat...... & No particular reason for the choice of pixs. Just the mood and how it fitted with it.      Yes, I believe I never mention this here before- I love eating like LOADS! I wont feel happy till after dinner cos in between, I feel empty. Everyday, I'll plan what to eat for each meal. And before sleeping, I will be thinking of tomorrow's breakfast. That's how crazy I am. hurhur. There was one point where I'll record all these down in a little book of what I'd consumed in the day. It got kinda boring after a while(I eat almost the same stuff everyday!), so I chucked it aside. *chuckles* Ahh..... Im sure everyone loves eating too! Dont you? Okay, i better stop before I get even ridiculous. See, even my food is telling me to off the comp now.... =/ hee. * Yes, something funny to share that happened in class. Someone was eating the chicken biscuit and then the Chinese teacher thought that he had smoked. Everyone laughed like lunatics upon hearing it. *laughs in quiet amusement* * And like a slap on the face, I remembered that I still have tons of homework to be done by tomorrow night. 1english compre + 2 summaries.. Maths!!!(tt was hol hw actually), and tidy bits of history structured essays and a source based questions. Okay, really gotta start now otherwise im gonna fret like mad. And finally, Ive flipped through the wendy clarke’s modern history. I can just die. * I feel really relaxed today..going to jog later (guilty of my dinner) ~tada! Friday, January 05, 2007 @ 3:28 PM
Is this temporary? Changes are the only constant thing in life. A change may be something that we ask for or it may be what we never wanted. Unexpected yet we’d to move along, and to only undergo more changes in the way. Well, the first few days of school have just passed by like this. Everyone looks sort of different, their hair’s different etc cetra. But, they are still the same person. Passing by those familiar faces in the corridors, yet I still don’t know them. We share smiles, but it comes out all so forcefully. I feel more and more lost, and trying to distant myself, away from the crowd. My CCA is gone cos the teacher is leaving the school. Perhaps this will be the best for me, the teacher and everyone else. Seriously, I don’t know or maybe I don’t know what to feel. Sometimes, when you finally get what you wanted all along, the joy isn’t as good as what you’d expected. I guess im used to school already, physically or mentally. It’s just funny how on the first day of school when the principal is giving a speech, your mind is running through thousand of things, worrying this and that. But as the days goes by, you are already neutral to that same feeling. Everything’s gonna be the way it is before the holidays even started. The only comfort I find is that with the home room system removed, there is more time on my hands and I can do much more. Save those little precious moments of life. Im settled comfortably in the corner of the classroom, in my own quiet world. Is this an understatement? There are loud noises buzzing around my ears; many distractions everywhere. I laugh at the silly things people say. I listen to what they offer. But in the end, it all just fades away. I dont like going to school a bit. But I can’t opt out, can I? And, this is just one of the junction in life. Something I need to accept and understand, and there’s so much more for me to learn. As the weeks progresses, the workload will of course pile higher and we’d be gasping for air. Biology re-assessment is due in 2wks time. Everything’s moving too quickly as I struggle to catch up… Something less mind-boggling… it’s the mini weekend already! And I’ve planned a whole list of things to do. For me, it’s time to take some time off and do some mini shopping soon! And you should know how much I love weekends. Enjoy yourselves too! And please for god’s sake, I hope my weekendon the 20th and 21st of Jan will be pretty available cos I can already picture myself cramming freaking bio stuff in my brain…PLEASE. But I have a feeling that something that im looking forward to will fall on either one of the two days. Yes, Im this unlucky. Hah. You and I, we are all different. Tuesday, January 02, 2007 @ 3:55 PM
BACK TO SCHOO! You know what people, Im going back to school tomorrow. The whole boring-tiring ritual is starting all over again. Waking up at 6am, walking to school, coming home in the late afternoons/evenings, reaching home all tired and grouchy and dying to get some rest. Yes, that's what all Singapore students have to go through, Im not the only one. But somehow, I have this slight eagerness of going back to school. Not because of friends or the enthusiasm in learning new stuff, it's just...ummmm..ummm....I'll let y'all know when i think about it. So do your unfinished business today cos from tomorrow onwards, you wont have much chances to. Im trying too. And hope everyone ace school tomorrow and throughout the year. For me, I have to work doubly hard in my studies... Monday, January 01, 2007 @ 12:53 PM
Last day of yr 2006! Hrmmm. How or where do I start? Well, Im recharged now, after the last of rest from yesterday's event. Everything seems so yesterday. 2006 has just gone by like that and now its the first day of the new year. Anyway, Happy New Year! Yesterday was one of my most memorable day in my pathetic life. Went down to downtown east's countdown show for year 2007. Woohoo! Still, everything went by too quickly, (except while we were waiting to enter the hall), sat through most of the performances with a sian sian face till it was Soul's turn to perform. =D It was really really nice to see them on stage again- doing what they do best,performing strings of songs for us like wdmkf, jiu shi wo(real cool!),for you,more than words(this was a first and it was sorta special), and rising sun(their specialty=D). And I always get those weird feelings when i feel like they are sort of looking/smiling at you, but you just arent sure that it's you that kind of thing. Hrmm. Counting down with the rest of the singapore, soul, and soul fans was some thing I hadnt done so in the previous years so it's like quite heart-warming to see us all cheering together and screaming.'10.9.8.7.6.5.4.3.2.1!'Happy New Year! This kind of feeling is kinda rare but sweet. Was sweating hard throughout though! People were dancing away and yes, there's this 'crazy' guy who stood beside me who was just HIGHing all the way. Kinda pissed off at him first, but seriously he meant no harm.( I may seem like im very civilised myself, which is NO okay) Nothing against him anyway. happy new year too!(Well, that's another story so let me get back to the point...) Wheee, i really enjoyed myself thouroughly during the whole thing(well, most of it). Actually quite overwhelmed by the turn of events that its hard to describe. Everything was better than what i expected. (except that i had to walk home at 0130. =( ) Thanks to JIAJIA,STELLA,LILING, and even mavis and laychoo(coz i jus know them thru stella) for the ever-friendly smiles. hah. and ... it's also hard to express in words...Anyway, Soul was superb! Really wish the best for them! SO now im doing myself the favour of posting up pictures ! have fun browsing! =) me and the very cute but notti jiajia, muz be guai hor!  Our heads.  the toilet has a nice background!  Still on it...  okay,an rather bleak attempt at posing...  Tada! Our SOUL galores^_^  Liling and Stella lighting up wasted firecrackers! Hah. it was hilarious!  And the infamous barbeque pit... no 2222. AHAHAHA!  Just something to link it.. =p  Lighted up and all geared up for the....  There you see it, a pix paints a thousand words (=  OMG!! The rest are just pixs, you know, from a soul fan lar! The pictures arent really complimenting on their boyband image but yes, it's still them. They rocked the stage! look at awi's and ishi's expression..~~ woots  continue looking at their expressions...  finally, one of the slightly most righteous picture. (=  Singapore's pride!  Awi do make a good host..haha  Alfred's looking real ______ (fill in whatever you think he is....) =p  Clap!Clap!Clap! Im getting real boring and lame. Hurhur  Last few minutes of year 2006...  4 more seconds to year 2007!  and.. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!! Hugs and Cheers for All!  I know it's all blurry and fuzzy, but it's the best i could do with all those sparks and whatever that is making that place blurry and clouding the stage and the crowd...  They are so kawaiiiiii!  when you take pictures from a lower to a higher angle... I think it's rather cool though. (=  When the mrt is empty...  You can afford to fool around!...   Oh. and the deal about walking home late at night...  The road seems so sinister and lonely. Darkness surrounds you with only the street lights dimly lighting up that is just enough to guide you the way home. So I was really glad when I reached the void deck of my block.Hee. (= That's all i guess. At least now when sylvia is glaring at me impatiently.... |