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Just me.  Other days, I am.
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Friday, October 31, 2008 @ 10:22 PM
You've forgotten it's  I'm pretty sure no one cares about it that much, or even know what on earth is Halloween. Maybe it's due to the fact that it's only highly celebrated in countries of the Western World. I wished everyone would be more hyped up and stuff. Ah, it's alright. I get to be happy all by myself! No one to fight with me for candies.(Not that I have plentiful of them btw):) The day dragged on by today despite me being busy as a bumble bee.(literally) I feel so accomplished now. I've gathered enough pollen and fed on plentiful of nectar. Anyway Ive captured shots of my FF(frog face hahaha been so long since I used that acronym) and friends.    * And in an attempt to search for pretty pumpkin pictures, here's one I got. -flails-  Pumpkin farms are like WOW and the Little Boy is sooooooooooooooo adorable x10000000. No one can surpass my love for ek. I'm very sure. They're all mine. MINE. -inserts world domination laughter- Currently, sis is overly excited about setting up an exclusive YZ club. Only cute and bouncy, blond little heads or people with god like talent like jay qualify. HAHAHAHA crazy girl. She's currently grilling justin with stupid supposed-to-make-sense questions like, read my lips, Name the all boys schools in Sg? @__@ HAHA Im just fairly amused by the whole setup. Time to rest in my hive. Later~ You do what you want and not what you wanted. Wednesday, October 29, 2008 @ 9:58 PM
I...   *
Let the happier days continue Tuesday, October 28, 2008 @ 9:50 PM
You said I shouldnt  10 minutes to 10. Before everything's over It's a drag When everything's over Capricorn's awesome After everything's over Sweet Dreams. Monday, October 27, 2008 @ 8:33 PM
So much more than this okay i shall not complain anymore even tho its beyond redemption and utterly fugly and that every single attempt makes me feel so hopelessly frustrated. There's more to life than zbrush. - I feel emo now. Mum just told me that a very nice uncle is pretty sick now. His legs are like swollen due to diabetes and other silly illnesses kicks in as well. Even though I dont personally know him very well, but I know enough to tell that he's a very nice person. Once, just me and sis visited his house and he was ultra hospitable and happily showed us the rooms and offered us yummy food to take home for dad. And we didnt visit them like we said we would on this very day. ='( Give me a smile Saturday, October 25, 2008 @ 10:11 PM
Have you learned a happiness like that? I feel less sinful already. FYI, I had a whole chunky slice of banana choc cake at Secret Recipe and ice cream at Mac. Finally the evening sky was brilliant enough for a long overdue jog. I was like JOG PANT PANT PANT AND PANT ALL THE WAY. And jog-climbing up the overhead bridge was as hellish as usual. More noise made and I feel like Ive forgotten how to jog. =O Oh wow. mothers in western countries are so cool. They have interesting blog entries about their kids. And they post uber cute pixs of their kids and even do graphics on them. Such a heartwarming scene. Oh my gosh. @__@ Anyway, I want to do that in the future too for my C and T.. xD Snagged from halimah's fb.
Mini feast with the girls yesterday :D Still clueless. I dont want to know what you know. God, less than 48 hours left! A feeling of such longing and loss that it was sweet, the way revenge was meant to be sweet.
Thursday, October 23, 2008 @ 10:06 PM
The Weight @ 6:16 PM
Leave me this way Up Against The Wall
It's over Look out below And I'm wasted I still taste it Yeah it's so hard to let go So breathe in now And breathe it out The forecast A car crash It's looking like another... Breakdown, rebound This could be my last goodbye You cross your heart, I hope to die And I can't deny your eyes You know I try to read between the lines I saw a warning sign And then you threw me up against the wall Who said that it's better to have loved and lost? I wish that I had never loved at all No rewinds No second times And I won't break I won't waste, everything you left behind So don't follow Just let it go The weather's, been better Don't let it be another... Breakdown, rebound This could be my last goodbye You cross your heart, I hope to die And I can't deny your eyes You know I try to read between the lines I saw a warning sign And then you threw me up against the wall Who said that it's better to have loved and lost? I wish that I had never loved at all All the nights you spent sitting nowhere out there on your own All the nights I waited by the phone when you were going in alone And all your different faces and all your different ways are making everything a mess And all I'm saying is that all your different places and all the complications led to this *
Was feeling about half past dead. I just need some place I can lay my head. I like looking at song lyrics. They never fail to amaze me. The above was by Boys Like Girls anyway. In Capricon, I'm currently in love with 兰亭序, 给我一首歌的时间(<3),>Oh yes, 乔克叔叔 is a very cute song. The clown feels dejected in the sense that he has to act happy in front of ladies and gentleman to win their favour whereas the cool magician doesnt even have to smile for people to notice him.) I'm still trying to love the other fast tracks though sometimes my fingers just have a liking of pressing the skip button when they come along. Heh. These days instinct tells me to fall into a deep well of silence. Sometimes, it's doesnt really feel necessary to let words escape out. Have you ever felt the same way? You're sliding deep but my brain is still creeping on the surface. The odds of things ever being quite right again are clearly, completely not in my favour. Ps. imagine the happiness. I keep it hidden
Close to the surface in sight Wednesday, October 22, 2008 @ 9:32 PM
Distorted thoughts Today, not entirely happy. But still it's alright. Even unbelievable. My senses dim. Was it a figment of my imagination? Was it you? Saturday, October 18, 2008 @ 7:13 PM
Leaving me stranded What a day it has been today. Slightly depressing. Okay maybe totally depressing. Well, at least till melissa came. She's my saviour. I think I would have been somewhere crying already if not for her surprise visit to my house with the adaptor. Okay, I admit. It had been carefully planned by us all along. muahaha. But we definitely did not plan for my adaptor to die on me so suddenly. This is really one of the worst things that could possibly happen to me. It's driving me nuts. I suspect that there is something wrong with the ac power in my room. Every gadgets seemed to have suffered under its hand. Oh no. And now I can't even afford to rant here cos my battery is dying with every wilted seconds that passes and the best thing is I DO NOT HAVE AN ADAPTOR equals to having super weak internet connectivity which leads to frequent restarting. This is seriously taking a severe toll on me(and sis). AH from 85% when i powered this thing up to the measly 55% left now. Damn. And I still have pictures to post up. Okay shall stop here for words. And thank you so much melissa!
Pssst. can you spot the phone?
We were suppose to do SPSS but we practicaclly did everything else but it. Wheee. Comforted myself saying that weekends should be freed from school stuff. HAHA. Bet my gpa is going to go further downhill with such lame thinking.
And I did what i promised ecneret which was to hug the saddest person I see today. So, I hugged myself. No proof but sis saw me doing that multiple times. Heh. Gosh 30% left now. Im so gonna die tomorrow.
And HAPPY 19th, JUSTIN!! Stay smart and happy! :D
What used to meant everything means nothing now
Tuesday, October 14, 2008 @ 9:26 PM
Can't for long Just when I'm starting to like it a teeny bit better Sheeeet has to happen. Monday, October 13, 2008 @ 9:44 PM
Untitled. Had no choice but to double post. But I need to remind myself this. I think Im becoming psychotic and dumber. I keep seeing the timetable wrongly which leaves me teetering on the brink of madness. I got another day to live. Life is good. Give me the time of a song.. @ 8:30 PM
D.Press I love waiting for buses, esp oneofive(s) The fun really isn't when it arrives Bus waiting really is such a fun process Peering into the distance every now and then to see if the bus that's slowly(sometimes speedily) approaching is what I'm waiting for I'll disagree if you say it's such a bore Often, it's a comforting sight It's like winning without putting up a fight Every other buses zoom by except oneofive Say, don't I seriously have a penchant for staying +ve. But I feel like at least trying to stay cheerful most of the times, as much I can. GOOO ME. Feels like a mammoth task for me though. NEway, Im tired of ranting of how I'm dead sure my life will be in ruins tomorrow. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. SHEETZXZXXZZZZZZZZZZZ. HELPLESS PIECE OF SHEETZZZZ. Dont ask me why. SECRET. (Though I did blabber to some unfortunate souls) Then again, maybe I could get used to this all over again. * I wanna go to Australia one day! Somehow I know it's gonna be so god damn awesome. Heh. And I saw this really really cute caucasian kid at a random bus stop on the bus ride home. He was wearing an electric blue GAP kids shirt and was sheltering himself with this big umbrella in the shade. SO CUTE. HAHA. Im feeling silly now. SHEEETZZZZ. Ive acknowledged myself as The Girl Without the Phone. =O I can't contact you and you can't contact me. Grrrr. My life is indeed getting better every second. -goes desperately back to dreaming mode since dreams are free- maybe just a little longer Saturday, October 11, 2008 @ 10:55 PM
I Swear My grandmother is such a cat person. She has five cute and overly well-fed felines in her tiny apartment. Cookie, Chip, Caramel, Clover and Psycho (!!) Under her ultimate care and throwing in her fullest attention, these little kittens quickly bloomed to really huge cats. Seriously, the cats seems like they are twelve months pregnant every time I see them. No wonder stray cats are often lingering at her door step. =O Her eyes were full of joy when she praised her favourite of all, Clover. How he would transform into a nocturnal animal at night to watch the house for her and catch lizards/cockroaches. All these, while she sleeps. Her boundless love towards animals is amazing. I like watching cats. They make me want to slow down my pace and just conjuring the image of them resting quietly with blissful looks on their faces is comforting enough. For those in action, it makes me think that they are excited and eager to run off to somewhere else to seek for new adventures. Call me crazy for saying such stuff cos I do feel a little of that. But just a little while of thinking such strange thoughts feels fine. Anyway for me, I would be slightly more than contented if i had 'momo' as my pet. -winks- Wednesday, October 08, 2008 @ 11:05 AM
Not What Im Looking For listening to: Holiday- Boys Like Girls Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!! BAD NEWS. My world is gonna be filled with darkness once again because of this thing called school. @_@ Hence I decided that doing this felt important...  No, not the bear dance of course. =O This....  ** Head's still reeling a little but Im seriously feeling much better. yayness. Much less drowsiness and dizziness and gone are the days of vomiting. It's just that I'm severely dehydrated I think, looking at my dry/cracked lips. But water tastes funny to me now. Oh no. my taste buds are screwed as well. And this part is dedicated to ecneret. Thank you for enthusiastically snapping away pixs of your private collection yesterday to keep me entertained. :D They really did. Heh. Also, I'm feeling clearer headed to take mug shots of my jewels. HAHA. Im way over the phase of accessories. I went pretty bersek over them in the past as you can see. Heh. I'm toned down on them these days, espescially with earrings since it doesnt make much difference whether Im wearing them or not.  Now they are just peacefully sitting on top of the little white cupboard in a corner of my room, trying their best to shine.  You know I'll run far away.. Tuesday, October 07, 2008 @ 11:44 PM
Yet it has been emptied by time Feels like Ive finally come out of the longest coma ever. My world seems pale now, unsure. A scene of heartbreaking ending Like breathing, unable to stop. * Yesterday was the worst day of my life. Undoubtedly. Food poisoning sure ain't fun. A miracle I made it home even after throwing up at several mrt stops. SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP. alright, good night forever. It's just that letting go would make things easier Friday, October 03, 2008 @ 10:34 PM
Is it painful to learn? My friday was so much fun. Major pigging out session. I'm feeling terribly overloaded now and my stomach feels like a tornado has just ripped through it. Hearty dinner at Popeyes before proceeding on to Swensens for dessert. And 4 ice cream for three. Tsk. How fattening and unflattering is that? Pity my dad couldnt join us, to help lessen the guilt. And I felt poorly rich today.  I love them though. (^.^)V I don't like the feeling of being bloated after a heavy meal. Makes me feel super FAT and greedy. -oinks- But I like the feeling of eating, munching and chewing on something nice. Heh. Enough of talking to myself. Enough about food. Food isn't at all appealing to me at this current moment and state. Highlight of the day was that I finally experienced the majestic Sg flyer this afternoon. Well, frankly speaking, it's isn't even close to great, let alone majestic. My comment on it, like many others who had been on it before, espescially during bright day light, is that it's disappointingly boring. Not that the view was breathtakingly stunning or one that leaves people amazed with wow i didn't know Sg is so beautiful. I rather the amusement park anytime. And I always have this strange thinking that the Sg Flyer is somewhat like the ferris wheel. @_@ Maybe it will be better at night, with a better view of the skyline of the city and with the night lights. Nevertheless, it was a pretty good 30 mins spent up in air. Did some pretty nonsenical stuff there. Heh. Let the pictures speak for themselves. HAHA. Hell, why does everyone uses that phrase anyway, let the pictures speak for themselves. Shall be innovative and go with Let your imagination take you through the pictures itself. (bleh it sounds even 10000X more crappy and l a m e but it's pretty funny right? HAHAHAHA. Oh shut up. Still not done with talking to self?)  Ps. I love my new way of displaying the V. -grins widely- And I succeeded in looking really retarded today. Shhh.. There's actually even more embarrassing pixs that I dont dare post up. Bloody school is restarting in 9 days time.... .... -bangs fist on table top and goes into panic mode- you are not my junk Thursday, October 02, 2008 @ 10:33 PM
One For You Another (holi)day down. Today's a really stressful day for me. (apart from enjoying having listened to Jay's rendition of 你怎么连话都说不清楚 repeatedly. Such rich meaning in it. It's a fairly 'old' song though) Alas, read the below if you're keen to find out why I claim my day as nerve-wrecking. ......... So, i started working on a new graphic this afternoon. Subject's still the same, don't groan, my pretty flower boy. Heh. He's such a joy and torture to work with cos it'll make me smile and my cheeks hurt from all the smiling. Anyway, I happily started everything from scratch at about 1.11pm. Sourced for more MJ- friendly pictures and began scrutinising each and every one of them. Okay. After giving in some serious thoughts, I decided to work with the most friendliest (and hottest) one. -A hour or so later- (A rough but safe estimate) I'm done.  No? Stared hard at it for a few nervous seconds. Something feels weird about the graphic. Like everything feels a tad too messy. Plus I went a bit heavy on those effects. And when I checked back on its initial stages, I carefully discovered that simplicity could be better in this scenario.  Okay, that being settled, I need to tidy up those loose bits. Now I'll need to put the title up and some other little details up... Few more minutes gone and tada...  Just when I thought I'm done with the graphic for the day... I begin playing around with a newly saved texture and to my amazement, I realised that Hey, this isn't bad at all.  Feels so foresty and all with the greenish stuff, right? hehe I can just picture you cursing me under your breath cos I wasted your 111 seconds and more reading this. Photoshop drives me nuts. But nothing is to deter me away from it. Unless school starts. And Ive started on Gokusen 2. No more sawada(awww) but there's still the lovable yankumi and kuma(stars as a special appearance). Plus new eye candy KK yo~~. It's still as nice as ever though I kind of hoped a lot that I would see the familiar faces from before. coughMJcough. Haha. I feel so influenced to eat ramen. @_@ Stomach's making funny noises now. I'm kind of excited for tomorrow. Sg flyer and Swensens with people I love. Yay! * The amount of time never did mattered, period. And to someone maybe it's really time to move on. Wednesday, October 01, 2008 @ 5:23 PM
Nothing Seems Complete
What surprised me most was that
My grief was so vast It didn’t hit all at once Instead it appeared at the most inopportune times The red light two blocks from home The bathroom at home No longer in the picture anymore Yet I still pretend to be I was wrong.
Wrong about you Not when your eyes turned into the desert I can't find a trace of warmth
Trusted myself. Trusted a lie I told myself I was hoping so much I could give the reason why I still breathe I still live, I'm alive
Those are just my thoughts, scattered Of which are too late to be regretted
-Knocks head hard-
Stop wallowing in self pity. When bad things happen, as they always do, pick yourself up and keep going on. Isn’t that what life is all about? What does it help in moping around and blaming the whole world for the sorry plight you landed yourself into? It's not like anything terrible has happened to you, just that things didn't exactly turn out your way. And if you're hopelessly thinking that everything should go your way, you're in for a good laugh. Maybe you're still living in dream that could never possibly existed. Who are you exactly hoping will take pity on you? Someone that probably doesn't even know why you're in this whole mess. Just give it up, I'd say. It's pointless, anyway.
Right, and this means my life is starting all over again. Sigh, so much I have to do. Oh well.
Completely lost on what to take for Gems for the next semester. Instinct tells me that I should take something I like, or something near my type, judging from the title. Otherwise, i'll be yakking away non stop when school reopens about how horrible my choice proved to be.
On a brighter note, I did a lil something constructive just now. But then again, it's isnt. Still, it's good enough for me. And when I was heavily involved in it, I accidentally pulled out the charger w/o the battery and tada, all's gone. I was on the verge of throwing a stupid tantrum and let loose a string of impolite words. The tears were just coincidental.
Nevertheless it was a lot of fun, making a graphic out of eye candy aka Matsumoto Jun though I had to redo it once.
Here's the end result.
Actually, i did a second version too. Differs slightly from the first. Somewhat, I prefer the second one as it doesn't seems as empty as the first and maybe better choice of pictures. Heh.
oh wait. There's a third too. I just couldn't decide which gradient compliments the graphic best and hence all three are up. Dont mind me, cos that's just me. NEway, i think i like this most cos it looks the coolest. Ha ha.
(^.^)V
And here's one sylvia did under my tremendous influence.
Ha.
kudos to her for extra highlighting the cuteness of this boy.
Haven't you realised? I have been blogging religiously every day of late. Maybe this is to make up in advance for all the lost time that I'm unable to do so once school start. Cos I figured that I will not have the time and luxury to blog. And even if it's quite the contrary, I reckon all my entries will be something like this. Hi, today was a boring day in school as usual. Nearly fell alseep during.....
So, I'm trying to make the best of what's left of the holidays. More outings hopefully with various people. But first, i've got something i have to do...
The most beautiful sound of all is when the heart breaks. |
