What surprised me most was that

My grief was so vast

It didn’t hit all at once

Instead it appeared at the most inopportune times

The red light two blocks from home

The bathroom at home

No longer in the picture anymore

Yet I still pretend to be

I was wrong.

Wrong about you

Not when your eyes turned into the desert

I can't find a trace of warmth

Trusted myself. Trusted a lie I told myself

I was hoping so much I could give

the reason why I still breathe

I still live, I'm alive

Those are just my thoughts, scattered

Of which are too late to be regretted

-Knocks head hard-

Stop wallowing in self pity. When bad things happen, as they always do, pick yourself up and keep going on. Isn’t that what life is all about? What does it help in moping around and blaming the whole world for the sorry plight you landed yourself into? It's not like anything terrible has happened to you, just that things didn't exactly turn out your way. And if you're hopelessly thinking that everything should go your way, you're in for a good laugh. Maybe you're still living in dream that could never possibly existed. Who are you exactly hoping will take pity on you? Someone that probably doesn't even know why you're in this whole mess. Just give it up, I'd say. It's pointless, anyway.

Right, and this means my life is starting all over again. Sigh, so much I have to do. Oh well.

Completely lost on what to take for Gems for the next semester. Instinct tells me that I should take something I like, or something near my type, judging from the title. Otherwise, i'll be yakking away non stop when school reopens about how horrible my choice proved to be.

On a brighter note, I did a lil something constructive just now. But then again, it's isnt. Still, it's good enough for me. And when I was heavily involved in it, I accidentally pulled out the charger w/o the battery and tada, all's gone. I was on the verge of throwing a stupid tantrum and let loose a string of impolite words. The tears were just coincidental.

Nevertheless it was a lot of fun, making a graphic out of eye candy aka Matsumoto Jun though I had to redo it once.

Here's the end result.

Actually, i did a second version too. Differs slightly from the first. Somewhat, I prefer the second one as it doesn't seems as empty as the first and maybe better choice of pictures. Heh.

oh wait. There's a third too. I just couldn't decide which gradient compliments the graphic best and hence all three are up. Dont mind me, cos that's just me. NEway, i think i like this most cos it looks the coolest. Ha ha.

(^.^)V

And here's one sylvia did under my tremendous influence.

Ha.

kudos to her for extra highlighting the cuteness of this boy.

Haven't you realised? I have been blogging religiously every day of late. Maybe this is to make up in advance for all the lost time that I'm unable to do so once school start. Cos I figured that I will not have the time and luxury to blog. And even if it's quite the contrary, I reckon all my entries will be something like this. Hi, today was a boring day in school as usual. Nearly fell alseep during.....

So, I'm trying to make the best of what's left of the holidays. More outings hopefully with various people. But first, i've got something i have to do...

The most beautiful sound of all is when the heart breaks.